i fell into a pot of rainbow

#298 – old(er)

buttonjones — Mon, 21 Mar 2011 06:13:25 +0000

Back when i started blogging, i was probably 16 years old or something.
the idea of sharing your life to the world seemed scary and yet exciting at the same time.
And now, almost 10 years later, i find it silly to blog about everyday stuff.
I don’t expect an audience here anymore cause it’s getting weird sharing your life
with people you don’t really know.

How much information do you want let people know?

I find it much easier to blog back then when i had my relationship troubles, and now that life is pretty much stable, i find myself having nothing to blog about anymore? It would be easy to just post camwhoring shots of myself and write about things that dont matter.

i guess in a way, it’s a good thing that im no longer so high strung on emotions..but if u do wanna see what im up to, go on to my tumblr, i do update it more often.

till the next time i feel strongly abt something, bye!

#297 – What setting is this?

buttonjones — Fri, 25 Feb 2011 16:38:17 +0000

“which do you think among us will get married first?” We would often ask this when we were younger. Answers were always mixed with occasional jokes but today, this year, 2011, we wouldn’t have to guess or ask cause we would know, that she is gonna be first.

In some ways, i’ve always knew how different life would be for all of us but somehow it has never really sink it and when today, the bestie showed us her ring, i was just lost for words..and all i could let out was omg and incoherent squealing.

we’ve been friends since we were 12 and i decided there and then, we’re gonna be best friends and fast forward 14 years later, my bestie is getting married. I’m sooo happy it’s crazy.. (i’m really not that crazy about weddings).

I’m lost for words once again but i just wanted to write this down so i’ll always remember how i felt. Unconditional love and friendship all rolled in one.

I hope you know how happy i am for you and i wish for you only all the best things.. i love u too much!
fishball + sausage forever. hehe.

#296 – If i knew

buttonjones — Wed, 16 Feb 2011 05:20:57 +0000

If I knew the
sun wouldn’t come up tomorrow,
I’d call you and tell you I miss you
and spend just a while in your arms
When the shy moon
starves us of light it’s okay, ‘cause
I don’t need my sight to see you, love;
your portrait is clearer than ever
Hide and seek
but never find;
can’t seem to speak
when you’re on my mind

To Claire; From Sonny – If I Knew

Heard this from a blog and got to watch the short movie. One of the few songs that touched me in this recent days. Those who feels too much, loves.

#295 – We are over at the other side

buttonjones — Mon, 14 Feb 2011 09:06:54 +0000

I know it’s been forever.. but it’s ok when no one is keeping count..right?

Work has been the same but i do find myself enjoying it here more cause i know i have family. I like that sense of security i get when i’m here. I guess in a lot of ways, im a person that lacks security..and hence you’ll always find me by the corner where i know i’ll be safe with something beside.

Today is the last day of chinese new year. How did yours go? I had a pretty fulfilling one. Went visiting with my cousins this year and before you think it’s all about the red packets, it isn’t.. im just really bored stiff of being at home doing absolutely nothing. It was great fun and us, the cousins have gotten closer than ever. I really like that.

Just the other day, i was thinking of the one person who was and is such a big part of me but is now gone. I don’t like denying the fact that i think of him every single day and i always wonder how things are and if he even remembers me. Would i ever see him again and how would things go?

AHh.. i’ll leave that topic for another day… and not get too sad and depressed since it’s valentines day! Today marks the 4th time king and i would be celebrating valentines together. We’ve never been a huge fan of it but we still do stuff on this day..just no cheesey presents and flowers. Yesterday we had dinner at our favourite joint and i really like the fact that we can just sit and talk over dinner, enjoying food, getting way too full. I know it’s strange to hear but do you ever get a sudden burst of happiness when you know you’ve found that someone you can do anything and everything with?

Tonight, we’ll cook dinner together and have a blast! Will update with our food photos if it’s not burnt. Here’s one of us from dinner last night..

have a good valentines day with ur loved ones.

#294 – Soldier down.

buttonjones — Tue, 25 Jan 2011 13:37:01 +0000

Like my previous post, i was just thinking the other day, i haven’t had a fever in ages..
and no prizes for guessing, over the weekend after coughing for a week, i was finally down with one.

yesterday, i left work early cause i was feeling pretty shitty.. and while in the train, after standing up from bloody jurong east to the east, my vision started turning blur and was seeing black spots. Was this close to blacking out in the train and had to get out before i did. called k and he came got me. First time ever and was so terrified.

Third week at work and i’ve alrdy been sick for two. Digressing, work has been pretty ok.. much better then before prolly cause i interact with way more (3) people. haha! Met a couple of really sweet colleagues and have been lunching with the couz and aunt almost everyday.

Cny is coming and i really need to get better before then. gonna go sleep now. will post soon enough. <3

#292 – all over again

buttonjones — Sun, 09 Jan 2011 16:29:12 +0000

it def isnt easy and lord knws how much i dread this feeling… i hate how im so scared when it comes to things like that..

really thankful for such an ever supoortive boyfriend.. i really dont know what ill do without you. love u with everything i have.

everything will be ok. it will be. im stronger than this.

#291 – Another one bites the dust

buttonjones — Thu, 06 Jan 2011 00:32:26 +0000

I dont know why i had the sudden thought for the title as i think back on what had just happened.
A sudden revelation.

I’ve always wondered why some women are so petty, with little jealous thoughts, bitching about others while some always seem so collected being at peace with themselves.

I’m writing this at 8 in the morning just because the mumzer woke me up to turn the effin aircon off at 6 in the morning. Sometimes i really don’t know what goes on in her head. I digress… i was surfing the net looking through facebook and at the corner of my eye, they were suggesting i add a certain guy i used to know pretty well. Old lovers.

That’s the thing that always puzzles me, the one person you share your life with so passionately for a period of time becomes a stranger the next time you meet. This guy wasn’t my first boyfriend but let’s just say i did some crazy thing at one point of time and at 15, i really didn’t know better. Since then he’s always been with this girl after we broke up, i thought she was so annoying to look at. (ok don’t shoot me, i was a bitter person *guilty face*) But they’ve been together since then and i just saw that they got married. The wedding was so different from any that i’ve seen and it seemed so full of love and everything was put together with such thought. It’s sweet and while browsing, i realized hey…she’s actually really pretty and i’m really happy for them.

So that got to me, while we live on being bitter at old lovers, friends, random strangers.. we’re stuck in some kinda of a rut. It’s a scary carousel that we pay for just to torture ourselves and when we open our hearts to forgive and contentment, we’ll be at peace.

Because truth be told, you can stay bitter and get all riled up at a person but he/she isn’t gonna stop his/her life for you and neither will your thoughts/opinions hold any power.. so why don’t we just live with a smile?

My new resolution for 2011, live it up, let it go and be joyful. What’s yours?

#290 – The things i want but don’t need

buttonjones — Wed, 05 Jan 2011 04:28:51 +0000

this was always what i wanted as a child. Back then i made my own notes to stick on books and i even had a system in the computer to input who borrowed what. haha such fun!

source: fredflare.com

I’ve been crazy about vitaminwater ever since i had it in japan.. and i recently just found vitaminwater schtick! my love for lip balm and vitaminwater all in one.

#288 – Hello eleven!

buttonjones — Sat, 01 Jan 2011 03:12:43 +0000

Happy new year whoever that reads this!
2010 was a year with really significant events.
Not particularly good or bad..

To sum up..

K and i hit 3 years, both our longest r/s ever..
Caeser ate a toy and had to get surgery.
I graduated!
Went to Japan, Penang, Bintan, Batam with awesome people.
Started working
Stopped working
Participated and attended a wedding
Went to taiwan with the family and a good time
On the 31st, i spent it with the people i care most about.. and it was the perfect ending for 2010.

So for 2011, my resolutions are..

To get into shape because seriously round is not a shape..
To be better in every aspect or at least try.
To be a nicer daughter, friend, girlfriend, mother(to caeser)
To find joy in everything i set my heart to do
To be thankful, always.

#287 – What era are we at?

buttonjones — Sat, 11 Dec 2010 06:04:57 +0000

I can’t remember when i started liking jazz, bossa nova and blues..but these days its almost all i hear. The really warm vinyl sound with the rich trumpet playing in the background, how can anyone resist?

Every time i put on a little ella fitzgerald, nat king cole, louis armstrong and the really great frank sinatra i feel like im transported into another era. Where lady gaga and all the crap pop songs doesn’t exist. Those to me are good music and after so long, it’s still as good… shouldnt songs be this way and not one that makes you cringe with repeated lyrics?

It might just be me but i wish i’m living in that era where everyone was still poor, technology wasn’t all that fantastic and smiles were genuine. Sigh..i can only dream.

Meanwhile, had a good weekend. I know i will be. Birthday dinner with K later in the evening.

I love you…for sentimental reasons.